depress

should i or should i not.

wats the use of staying up and studying.
everything seems to be so vague.
is this wat everyone will go through.
my mind is in a whirl.
to give up or not to give up.

whenever i see chemistry now, i just felt its no use. studying it and always getting a C. i really need to think abt my future seriously. abt time i should have a good talk with ms tay already. i seemed to noe everything but the results just dun show.

seeing mrgui asking me to consider dropping to combine. my heart just ache. i worked so hard and yet this is all i get.

tears just well up in my eyes la. sorry. im too disappointed in myself. im too depress. im hopeless. im useless. mabbe i should just rot to death.

i just feel so unlove. so unwelcome. so friend-less.

i wan a hug. but it seemed so far. i just need love. i just need care. i just need to study harder.

study harder study harder and study harder. how stress up can i feel. i just dunno wat to do anymore.

O LEVELS are nearing and im feeling this way. teachers. save me from this vague optimism world. =/

mr naufal rocks(: